He once told me his parents died of heart disease, and I think that's why he thought he would die young.

I don't know that he always liked himself, deep down . . . but then other days he'd feel like he was invincible. We had some good times in 18 years, so there's a bond. I loved him dearly and part of me still does.

He always expected to die young, and I thought that was really a tragedy. It's almost like he had a premonition.

He always said how much he hated going to the hospitals. He became more (vocal) about how much he hated it after he retired, but he always said he hated it.