It felt like a bomb exploded inside my body, pretty much. And not a small bomb — like an M-80 firecracker. I just hope I never feel that again.

For people who didn't know the whole story ... it was easy to jump to conclusions and think I'm crazy. But I didn't think it was a dangerous situation. I felt protected.

Coming into my return, I knew that anything (that) happened during the course of my career that involved my heart, I would put my shoes to rest. We did not expect what happened on Thursday night to happen, but it did and it is no longer safe for me to play competitive Division I basketball.

It's definitely hard, and it's sad. For this to suddenly happen so quickly and realize I'm done again is very hard. At the same time I feel very calm about it, and feel like I'm prepared.

Coming to the Hope straight out of college is the best move for me right now in my life as I am simply working with one of my passions.