That baby was all I had. That was my world. When my world was taken away, I was crushed.

She sounded like somebody who would be capable of taking care of Melissa. I didn't like the idea of not meeting her, but that's just the way it happened. ... I think of all the mistakes I made. It's too late to go back.

When they brought her name up, I said I'm not going to talk about it. It hurts. It hurts so much. I didn't put her photo in a frame where I could see it. I stored it all away. I kept them, and every once in a while I'd look through them for a few minutes and then put it away.