I wish I would have had a gun yesterday...just...to shoot it out, maybe get lucky and get away, or get lucky and not have to face this...no more.

If I had a gun on me yesterday, I wouldn't have pulled no gun out to shoot or kill any cops. I would have pulled a gun out to get shot just so I wouldn't have to face this...that I'm facing now.

I'm going to be honest - I just don't see me doing the rest of my life in jail. I'm the type that would maybe go get a couple bags of heroin or something, shoot 'em up, just lay down and go to sleep.

I figured there was no reason to lie. I told them I just escaped.

I knew I had to step it up. My teammates looked for me, I got open shots and I knocked them down. I did my thing.

I'm not going to eat until I get out of Schenectady County Jail. They'll have to court order or whatever they have to do. But I don't want another tray while I'm in this jail.